Dagger of the Soul by Natasha Solten

Rated: ADULT (NC-17)
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Story Type: Angst, First Time
Trope (OPTIONAL): Hurt Kirk
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes
Word count: 5594 Read: 223

Kirk, haunted by nightmares, is unable to deal with the aftereffects of the neuro-neutralizer. 

Kirk took a deep breath. “I find I’m in desperate need of company, Spock.” Only as he spoke did he realize he was shaking. He hadn’t noticed even as he dressed, but his voice shuddered with the increased beating of his heart. 

Originally published in 1985 in the print fanzine Act Five, Scene One. Posted to ksarchive on March 22, 2018. 

“Dagger of the Soul, N. Solten, is based on the episode concerning the use of the tantalus field against Kirk. He is now having horrible after shocks from it, and nightmares. He seeks out the comfort of Spock. Spock is shown as always being there to help. Spock tries to hide his love for Kirk, but eventually, with one of Solten’s usual wonderful endings, she again wraps up the story with an extremely moving end. I greatly enjoyed reading this because it focused on their emotional feelings for each other, rather than their sexual ones. A lot of depth, and the ending was loving and strong.” (x)

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