The Long and Winding Road by Sharon Pillsbury

Rated: ADULT (NC-17)
Categories: Fiction 
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Story Type: Angst, Character Study, First Time
Trope (OPTIONAL): Hurt Kirk
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Abuse, Explicit violence, Non-consensual sex, Rape
Chapters: 2 Completed: Yes
Word count: 47949 Read: 439

At Starfleet Academy, Finnegan’s roommate, a harsh, overbearing and insecure bully, takes the idea of a practical joke too far, injuring Cadet Kirk and leaving a guilt-ridden, not so cocky Finnegan in the wake of his brutality. Years later, now a starship captain, Kirk meets Finnegan again. His old feelings, and a still unresolved psychological block from the events at the academy, surface and threaten his mental health as well as his quickly deepening relationship with Spock. 

Originally published in 1990 as the print fanzine “The Long and Winding Road.” Cover art by DEW. Posted to ksarchive on March 4, 2019.